plain sensitive

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

hating someone you really love....

it's very contradicting....and i hate feeling this way.
but having a commitment with somebody really far from you is way too hard.it may seem easy at first but problems do arise.
if ever,in good fate,ur reading my blog, i want to tell you that:"i hate being ignorant of what you're thinking or what's happening to you.i hate being taken for granted and all. i hate being surprised with stuff about you.i hate to pretend like i have supernatural powers that i can read your mind.i hate being near yet so far from you.i hate to admit that i'm starting to hate you....."

you have searched for true love in your own ways, but My ways are higher than your ways. Would you let me hold the pen of your lovelife and script a beautiful tale just for you. -JESUS [again]
--3:37 AM--

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

challenged

i'm getting more and more challenged and disheartened at the same time. I got a freakin' 0/3 on my last exercise in math 11.. it's very easy if you'll come to think of it... i don't know maybe i'm not yet ready for schooling talaga... :) ang yabang ko pa naman the last time i'm flaunting my perfect quizzes then i got a 0? plus 4/8, also in math and 3/10 in botany laboratory.... i remember i need to make my grades higher than 2.5 so i can transfer to CAS to take biology... anyway, may the gracious Lord be with me...

Our freshman night will be on july 21, i wonder how would it be? nayahaha...
I have some friends na nga pala... like ej, tina, zenar, dradra, marjo, arianne, rhea, chariz, mia, of course maex! ok naman... most of them are my classmates in most of my subjects kaya un! got to go.....tapos na yata magresearch si gi... aalis na kami....

Friday, July 01, 2005

it's friday again.....

yippeee..... weekend na ulit... but hey! i'm not that happy...my saturday would surely not be complete without him... well, i guess that's the way it is... we should learn how to love from afar.... nyahaha ang corny talaga ng love e... anyway...it's quite hard dealing with long distance relationship lalo na kung palpak ang communication.... but i know we'll get thru this....

gloria scandal is affecting me pretty hard. How can Philippines be blessed if our President is a BIG FAT LIAR? well, i sincerely believe that there are a lot of blessings on hold because our country is getting more and more sinful everyday.when would phils. realize that if we bow down and pray our nation will be healed?
Last night i joined my mom and dad watch the congress meeting. The senators agreed to play the controversial tape and investigate the crime. I can't believe how i clearly heard mrs.arroyo's instructions and selfish requests... OMG!~ all i can do is pray....

yesterday was the bomb! i really enjoyed my mid week service at youth jam! love it to the max... i'm with gian (he practically impeached jaha for being my bestfriend) and a new friend from my blk his name is eljireh(ej) nice diba? ate potch and i will meet every wednesday to have our one-one yey! and boy am i glad to hold cell group at csi.... love it to the max...! oo nga pala..Mr. laserna asked me to teach the sophies a hand mime presentation.xcited?! jaha passed the pop band screening thingy nga pala.... who cud be more happier than i? galing ng bebe ko no?

anyway, its werner's birthday today... we ate at La ville. un lang! I went at csi nga pala.... major chikka ever with mam blesi.

I'm sleepy na so i must go home.... muwahhh

Sunday, June 26, 2005

learning....

am i tired of learning? of course not... i will learn a lot more things as long as I live....
my history teacher Mr. Narito is good at encouraging his students into becoming a "somebody" someday... well, other professors don't care about his students' personal thoughts and dreams. But he made sure that he knew everyone in his class..specifically their dreams... i wish there would be a lot more Mr. Narito in UP.

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

new phase of life ...

haaaayy... grabe i miss my higschool life terribly as in...! yesterday was my first day at the University of the Philippines LB. i can't help myself to drop by at my former school Christian School International every once in a while.... i miss all the people there so much....

I can easily distinguish the difference of college life and highschool life. very BIG indeed. It's hard to adjust from a spoon-feeding teaching to a reasearch-it-yourself teaching, from waiting for the teacher to arrive in your permanent room to travelling from different rooms to another to meet the professor, from having a fixed time for lunch and recess to taking lunch and recess late, from having summer girls, beach boys, click and ichthus as my set of friends to making strange persons my friends, from many more things to another.... haaaayy... it's really a new phase of life... and we need to face it with a determined heart and spirit to survive....

Friday, June 10, 2005

Today's gonna be... interesting

Jahaziel together with his family will go to our house later... actually they're at BK na nga e...

well let me give you a quick re-cap:

June 03: we became officially together...

June 04: Went to nica's house... Uhmm... la lang kain lang po... me, jaha, drei,drew, alloy and ichan.

June 05: It's a Sunday. We're super legal na... with both parents.

June 06: We went out.

June 07: We broke up.

June 08: We went to Mama Abe's house. God! he looked si depressed...

And today June 09,2005 . His parents will come over our house to talk with my parents

Monday, June 06, 2005

My sweet Summer Vacation:

APRIL 07: Graduation Day

April 08: Swimming with ICHTHUS La Roca Resort

Aptil 12: Jaha and I went to school to get my diploma and other pictures. And then we headed on my Dentist appointment (another first by jahazel)

April 13: Jahaziel went to our house and brought bukopie for my family.

April 15: Cavite Challenge. Went to Dasmariñas with Jahaziel’s family to check if he passed the freakin’ examination. Good thing he did! We also went to his Ninong Hermie’s house and ate lunch.

April 16: Cell group at Elazigue Subd. at Chariz’ house. Jaha came with me. ( another first)

April 18- 23: Daily Vacation Bible School. I really love it there! This year’s theme was Son Canyon River Adventure. Yeah it’s cool…

April 29: We went to Nica’s house and ate lechong manok… Jaha and I quarreled over Erika and Andrew. He got pissed off with me. But we worked it out.

May 01: Youth service!
Ptr. Nonie Piamonte preached.

May 02: Whole day practice for the JIL 19th Anniversary.

May 03 -06: CPA Youth Camp. It was really refreshing and I was set on fire again. I was so happy because I was able to meet a lot of other Christian youth here in Calamba.
I also took entrance examination at De La Salle University before I went at the Lord’s Garden.
1st day : Ptr. Jhun talked about Sexuality
Ptr. Levy Erasga remineded the Youth of their purpose

2nd day: Pstr. Virgie Hernandez discussed about Under Cover w/c is about our submission to God.
Sportsfest
Special Presentations
Camp Fire
Ptr. Andy Ercia told us about Visons. I love this part!
3rd. Day: Commissioning
Praise and Worship to the max
May 07: General practice at LLC Auditorium.

May 08: JIL 19th Anniversary. This year we proclaim that this is the YEAR OF TRANSFORMATION. Our speaker was Ptr. Bobot Bernardo and he preached about Personal Transformation. There were really a lot of people. This year’s anniversary was very organized I can see, because weren’t struggling or anything. The whole program ran smoothly and it was a great success!!!

May 16: We went to Mama Abe’s house

May 17: KKB prayer meeting

May 18: Jahaziel preached at HASIK with his Dad. I can’t come.

May 19: I went to Biñan to see my dermatologist with Jaha. We also went to Robinson’s and Pavillion Mall. We bought curtain rod and some things my mom asked me to buy. We ate at Pizza Hut nga pala.

May 20:KKB Sportsfest

May 21: Prayer Breakfast.
Cell group Elazigue Subd.

May 24: KKB Prayer mtg.
We rehearsed for the Special no. entitled Nag-aalab

May 25: Nica and Andrei went here at home with Aloy.

May 27: Jith, Macoi, Aloy, Andrew and Jaha went here. We ate ice cream and everything.

May 28: Worship Symposium
I was with Andrei, Jaha, Aloy, and Chuchin
Ptr. Dan Balais
Sis. Edith San Pedro. –Worship as it is in Heaven
Harana sa Hari
The Lord tested our level of intimacy when it comes to worship with Him. He let the power supply to be cut off to test if we really came to that place to Worship Him. As we waited for the power supply, we sang praises for our Living God. Since it was past eight o’clock, we decided to reschedule it some other time. But it was surely a significant date to remember. It was a day of true worship before the KING.

May 30: I was in! I was admitted to UPLB. Who would want to go at Baguio if you have UPLB near you? Million thanks to Mrs. Dorado-Head Registrar and to my ever-supportive Tita Esie.

June 02: Went to Los Baños with my dad. Jaha met me up at G-site. We went to their house for the reason that I don’t have money and I forgot to ask from my dad. So I went there for the first time, It was just a simple yet a comfortable house to live in. We watched Kung Fu hustle and I headed home early that day.

June 03: Jahaziel’s dream came true…

June 04: Mac Mac’s birthday… walang handa?! Sadyang tinikis kami? We went to Nica’s house again. She prepared a little get together for us because she will leave tomorrow for Diliman.
Jahaziel and I were fasting later that night.

June 05: Youth Service. Oh Boy! This is the happiest day of my life!!! God never fail me. As in never! Mark this day, I will celebrate it for the rest of my life, for this is the day that the Lord revived my life. This is where I say it’s enough to go sinning. It’s enough to live inconsistently. It’ the right time we cry out to GOD, GIVE US CLEAN HANDS, GIVE US PURE HEART!!!! OH GOD LET US BE A GENERATION THAT SEEKS YOUR FACE…